I’ll often think “are there other people who feel/think like this / Am I allowed to feel or think like this / Is this okay?” or “is this just because I’m autistic”

but you know. Maybe it’s both. It’s because I’m autistic and it’s okay. I’m allowed to feel/think like this. I don’t immediately have to find an explanation “it’s because I’m so self-centred and that’s because I’m autistic” “I’m just this emotional about it because my emotions are so intense because I’m autistic. So what I’m feeling isn’t really legitimate”. Cause I subconsciously see it as a bad thing that I need to recognise and suppress. 

I don’t really know why I’m so hard on myself. Is it because I care so much about what other people think? Is it because of my parents? I don’t know.