so i went to see my therapist today, and actually for the first time i felt like i could actually manage not to speak top quickly (cause i tend to do that in real life, all the time) and really remember to take my time with my words and just relax and it kinda worked! so i’m proud of myself for that.

we talked about finding a job and where i could go for help and she suggested an organisation that really might help me to make it easier and less scary to find a job. 

they work a lot with autistics gals like me too so they know what they’re doing! basically you first have to go to these group sessions with other people where you find out what you want and what you’re good at and what you’re not so good at. then they find you a job that fits you well, and THEN you do an internship and you don’t have to be interviewed first.  it’s not an interview. you just get acquainted with the boss and the company and you’ve got a job coach right there with you so that makes it WAY less scary. 

and after we were done discussing all that, i mentioned i really wanted work on my self confidence this year and she threw up her hands in the air like “YES. PERFECT. I DON’T EVEN HAVE TO DO ANYTHING YOURE HELPING YOURSELF ALREADY YOU GO GURL LOOK AT U” like she was so proud haha :D i love her honestly. that little moment made me feel great. at the end she said she felt like she never had to do much cause i was always 5 steps ahead of her. =)

I love that i am strong. i love that i really want to get better and work for it. i’m really excited to see what confident and happy loes will be like. i bet i’ll really like her. i think she’ll be a bit of a poppins. my own kind of poppins. i’m excited. 

let’s do this.